Two days before I start

Hi,

I know I am sad and blogging in cyberspace rather than speaking to any one!. It just that we have decided to keep this treatment secret because we don't want any pressure from friends and family. So far, a few of my friends (who have children ) have suggested why don't you try IVF to speed up the process, it works, and then proceeds to tell me all about the older mothers who have been reported in the press recently IE "Women age 61 gives birth to twins". When this happen to me last might, I didn't have the courage to say we tried in Feb and I had a 8K period and we were embarking on the journey again this month.

I not sure what the future holds for us, but I know the mountain to get here has been bloody high to climb. I am aware we only have a 1 in 10 chance of success and that's after all the mini hurdles, IE down regging, stimming etc, etc. I am being practical this time, because last time I was slightly over ambition and didn't realise the odds were so low and expected with my PMA it would work. When it didn't work, my world came crashing down and I experienced the biggest coming down to earth, aka reality check. This time, I will be more cautious and not let my emotions run away, I will try to be positive but realistic at the same time. I suppose its all about going with the flow rather than dictating how life should be.

Because I am a desperate women and feel like a condemned hen, I have thrown everything at this cycle.

Supplements
After reading Radine Lewis site and book and have been taking the following supplements
( not religiously)

Spirunlia
Pcynogeol -
Vit C - tablets, 1grm every other day, (some reports say Vit C is good for Ovarian function others say no)
Wheat grass - 1 shot per day (started last week)
Royal Jelly 500mg with Propolis, pollen etc
Pregnacare

Therapy
Also I have been having weekly Acupuncture since mid April (brought my cycle to 28 days so it must be working, prior to Acupuncture my cycle varied from 23 to 28 days.

Diet
My diet has been slightly poor, I am a fish eating vegetarian and normally eats loads of greens but since my failed circle I have not had much greens in my diet. (will improve this asap)
I have been drinking milk (organic a litre a week but should be having more protein)
Have increased my water intake
Weight has increased (not good, it is due to pre IVF nerves, I have been eating chocolate)
I did buy Solgar Whey to Go (but jury still out if I should take it our not)

Stress
Trying not to stress myself and work crazy hours, (I am a workaholic, trying to stop)

Reading back through this post, it doesn't look like, I have really changed anything dramatically but the main thing is I am trying to improve my odds.

Thats me on day - 2 before lift off.

P.S Is anyone out there?????????